Glimmerings By Earnest Thompson Seton
(1) Yan was much like other twelve-year-old boys in having a keen interest in Indians and in wildlife, but he differed from most in this, that he never got over it. Indeed, as he grew older, he found a yet keener pleasure in storing up the little bits of woodcraft and Indian lore that pleased him as a boy.
(2) His father was in poor circumstances. He was an upright man of refined tastes, but indolent--a failure in business, easy with the world and stern with his family. He had never taken an interest in his son's wildwood pursuits; and when he got the idea that they might interfere with the boy's education, he forbade them altogether.
(3) There was certainly no reason to accuse Yan of neglecting school. He was the head boy of his class, although there were many in it older than himself. He was fond of books in general, but those that dealt with Natural Science and Indian craft were very close to his heart.
(4) Not that he had many--there were very few in those days, and the Public Library had but a poor representation of these. "Lloyd's Scandinavian Sports," "Gray's Botany" and one or two Fennimore Cooper novels, these were all, and Yan was devoted to them. He was a timid, obedient boy in most things, but the unwise command to give up what was his nature made him a disobedient boy. It turned a good boy into a bad one. He was too much in terror of his father to disobey openly, but he used to sneak away at all opportunities to the fields and woods, and at each new bird or plant he found he had an exquisite thrill of mingled pleasure and pain--the pain because he had no name for it or means of learning its nature.
(5) The intense interest in animals was his master passion, and thanks to this, his course to and from school was a very crooked one, involving many crossings of the street, because thereby he could pass first a saloon in whose window was an advertisement that portrayed two terriers chasing a rat; next, directly opposite this, was a tobacco shop, in the window of which was a beautiful picture of an elephant, carrying tobacco. By going a little farther out of his way, there was a game store where he might see some ducks, and was sure, at least, of a stuffed deer's head. Beyond that was a furrier shop, with an astonishing stuffed bear. At yet another place on Jarvis Street was a cottage with a high veranda, under which, he was told, a chained bear had once been kept.
(6) He never saw the bear. It had been gone for years, but he found pleasure in passing the place. At the corner of Pemberton and Grand streets, according to a schoolboy tradition, a skunk had been killed years ago and could still be smelled on damp nights. He always stopped, if passing near on a wet night, and sniffed and enjoyed that skunk smell. The fact that it ultimately turned out to be a leakage of sewer gas could never rob him of the pleasure he found in it.
(7) Yan had no good excuse for these weaknesses, and he blushed for shame when his elder brother talked "common sense" to him about his follies. He only knew that such things fascinated him.
(8) But the crowning glory was a taxidermist's shop kept on Main Street by a man named Sander. Yan spent many weeks gazing spellbound, with his nose flat against that window. It contained some fox and cat heads grinning ferociously, and about fifty birds beautifully displayed. Nature might have got some valuable hints in that window on showing plumage to the very best advantage. Each bird seemed more wonderful than the last.
(9) There were perhaps fifty of them on view, and of these, twelve had labels, as they had formed part of an exhibit at the Annual County Fair. These labels were precious truths to him, and the birds were, with their names, deeply impressed on his memory and added to his woodlore. However, the labels were not always correct. For the alleged wood thrush was not a wood thrush at all, but turned out to be a hermit thrush. The last bird of the list was a long-tailed, brownish bird with white breast. The label was placed so that Yan could not read it from outside, and one of his daily occupations was to see if the label had been turned so that he could read it. But it never was, so he never learned the bird's name.
(10) After passing this for a year or more, he formed a desperate plan. It was nothing less than to...go inside! It took him some months to screw up courage, for he was shy and timid, but oh, he was so hungry for it. Most likely if he had gone in openly and asked, he would have been allowed to see everything, but he did not dare. His home training was of the crushing kind. He picked on the most curious of the small birds in the window--a saw-whet owl--then grit his teeth and walked in. How frightfully the cowbell on the door did clang! Then there was a still more appalling silence, then a step, and the great man himself came.
(11) "How--how--how much is that Owl?"
(12) "Two dollars."
(13) Yan's courage broke down now. He fled. If he had been told ten cents, it would have been utterly beyond reach. He scarcely heard what the man said. He hurried out with a vague feeling that he had been in heaven but was not good enough to stay there. He saw nothing more of the wonderful things around him.